thank you, Lord, for “some”

Like many others, Lord, I am reminded every day that there are many things I want from my life. Some of them, You have given me. Some, You have not. Some, You have only given me some of. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

My job is not as fulfilling as I would like it to be. It can be frustrating when my work does not bear fruit, or drags on longer than I believe it should. I sometimes have to deal with idiots. Paperwork and bureaucracy chafe me. People who don’t understand my job impose pointless policies on me.

But I work from home for more money than I ever thought I would make. The benefits are good, and the job itself is easy. You have not given me everything I want from my job, but You have given me some. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

My house is getting old and in need of repairs, which takes up a lot of time and money. Currently, I have to replace all the floors on the ground level because of a water leak that went undetected for quite a while, damaging the subflooring. My house doesn’t look like the spacious, modern, professionally-designed and -decorated homes that my wife and I see on HGTV.

But my home is cozy and comfortable, and nothing beats its wood stove in the winter. You have not given me a house with all of the features and amenities that I want, but You have given me some. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

I have not written all the books and stories I have wanted to write, at least not yet. They have not been read as often as I would like. I will probably never be rich and famous. After I die, my books might very well be forgotten.

But what You inspired me to write, most readers have loved. They’ve sent me kind emails, left good reviews, and bought other books from me. You have not given me all the literary success that I want, but You have given me some. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

My physical and mental health are not as good as I would like. I have nagging issues with both. I have struggled with cancer. Often, I do not sleep well. I’m vain, so I don’t like wrinkles, thinning hair, and my “dad bod.”

But I feel good enough to get up every day and do the things that I need to do. I am in decent shape, and people tell me that I look okay for my age. You have not given me all the health I want, but You have given me some. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

The people in my life have not always been the ones that I wanted. People I cared for ignored me, or rejected me, or hurt me because they did not share my feelings. When I was younger, I could not keep many friends for more than a few years before they moved on, or I did. People I have cherished have died.

But You gave me a loving wife very early in my life, and You blessed me with two children who grew into better persons than me. The friends I have now are loyal and caring, and I have known them for decades. You did not give me everyone I want to have in my life, but you gave me some. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

I do not know how much time I have left. I do not know what more I will do, where I will live, what I will write, who I will know. I will not have everything I want, but You have and You will, I trust, give me some. And that is more than I need and deserve. Thank You, Lord, for “some.”

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Kenton Kilgore writes killer sci-fi and fantasy for young adults, and adults who are still young. He also dabbles in children’s books. Follow Kenton on Facebook for frequent posts on sci-fi, fantasy, and other speculative fiction. You can also catch him on Instagram.